I can't believe the difference.

I keep feeling giddiness. Like today as I left the library with 9 books that I have been waiting for for weeks. And then the other day when I caught myself wondering how to apply candy canes on my wrists so I can smell Christmas-y. I think back on last year when I was insanely miserable and vomiting day after day knowing at Christmas I have 2 months of sickness left. What a difference this holiday is. While this is my year to enjoy the season, I look around wondering if there are people miserable, lonely, sad, sick. I know they are there and I try to be aware and empathetic to others. I guess that is what trials do for us. Still, it is a merry happy day, and I am going to enjoy it. Off to watch Rudolph with Mason and Emma!